make it last forever

[SPENCER LYNDON STARK]

So the school knew about Stephanie's baby. That was it. Stephanie's baby. They'd appeared like a couple for a couple of weeks and now this. She announced it like they planned. The thing was, there was no mention of him in the announcement. People would either think it was his baby and he refused to take responsibility or it wasn't his baby and they'd ended things. Either way, he didn't like it. Of course, what he would do was to go talk to her. Yes, he supposed he should do that. After Stephanie had stormed out of his flat, he hadn't spoken to her. That had been several weeks ago.

It was now October and every time Spencer saw her, it seemed like she was losing weight rather than gaining it. And here he'd thought pregnancy would suit her. Maybe it did suit her in the beginning. Maybe the baby was sucking the life out of her. Or maybe it was him. Or all of the above. After all, he didn't exactly get along with her so called brother. Oh, if Spencer bumped into Tristan now, he might just get a beating or something. It was lucky that Tristan was usually not in England.

Spencer sighed, heading towards the Divination Tower. He wasn't sure what he was going to talk to her about. He certainly didn't object to raising the baby with her. But he didn't know if he wanted to be in a relationship with her. He didn't know how he felt towards her. He liked her as a person, yes. Love? He wasn't too sure on that. What was love anyway? How was he supposed to know he wanted to marry someone and spend the rest of his life with her?

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[STEPHANIE ABIGAIL BRESLER]

Four week, it had been four weeks since Stephanie spoke to Spencer last. She was fifteen weeks along, and Stephanie wasn't sure if she was gaining enough weight. In the last fifteen weeks, Steph had gained five pounds. By this point, she should have gained more, at least four more. Steph was tryin to follow the orders from the healer. She was in bed as much as possible. When she was teaching, she sat in a large chair. She kept off hee feet as much as possible.

Steph had told the castle three weeks ago, everyone knew now. Most people assumed it was Spencer's baby, and that he didn't want the baby. When asked, Steph avoided the question and let people assume whatever they wanted. There was one person who knew the truth, that Steph had walked away from Spencer. Tristan. Tristan, her brother. Stephanie had been exchanging letters with him. Now that Tristan had a daughter, he was spending more time in London. It was nice, knowing Tristan was closer.

"Alright, class dismissed! You guys did great today," Steph waved her class out the door. She was done for the day, she could go relax. After the last students left the classroom, Steph made her way down from the tower. Half way down, Spencer was walking up. Stephanie stopped walking a few feet infront of Spencer. "Hey Spencer," Stephanie said awkwardly, placing a hand on her stomach.

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[SPENCER LYNDON STARK]

And there she was. “Hi.” Spencer said, for that was all that came to his mind at the moment. Perhaps he should have prepared a speech or something. This reminded him of the time he first asked a girl out. Except this was something different. Asking a girl out for the first time was scary, yes. He couldn't bring himself up to do it the first few times he met with the girl. When he finally did, she agreed with a giggle and a kiss on the cheek. That had a good ending. This one? He wasn't quite sure. At least she wasn't yelling at him and telling him to go away. That was a good sign. Right? Plus, she'd greeted him.

He sighed, before looking at her. “I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled. The thing is, I do care for our baby. I don't know if I can go straight into father mode, because it seems like that is what you want. I like you, Stephanie. I do. But I can't just fall in love with you just because you are falling for me.” Spencer paused, a pained look on his face. He wasn't even sure of his feelings for her but he was rejecting her. It would be worse if he gave her hope and then he didn't fall for her. “Look, bottom line is. If you're up for it, I will raise him with you.”

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[STEPHANIE ABIGAIL BRESLER]

Steph sighed as she sat on the step. While she listened to Spencer, the small baby started kicking. According to the books, this is when she would start to feel movement. The book said it would be light, feathery kicks. It was wrong. From the first kick, his were strong and hurt a little bit. Wincing, Steph gently rubbing her stomach, hoping to calm the baby.

“Spencer, I don’t know if I can spend that much time with you. I can’t, especially know that you don’t feel the same. I propose we share custody, we split it even. 50/50, and we’ll do our best. This way, he’ll know us both and we’ll get breaks every other week.” Steph looked out the window as she spoke. It was raining, matching how she felt inside. “The last thing I want to do is keep you from your son.”

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[SPENCER LYNDON STARK]

Well, at least they settled it. Shared custody. This seemed way too easy for Spencer to believe. Perhaps he should get it in writing. Women were notorious for changing their minds. Stephanie for example, said she didn't want a relationship and then ended up falling for him. Thinking back, Spencer wondered if he might have strung her along. He didn't know. He couldn't compare this situation to anything, considering that this had never happened to him before.

“Okay...” Spencer said, sitting down two steps lower. “Should I get that in writing in case you change your mind?” He asked, grinning slightly at her. He would like that in writing, but he supposed he couldn't just outright ask her and question her word. He didn't feel like talking anymore about his feelings or her feelings. Yes, he missed her when she wasn't around. But that was to be expected when he spent that much time with someone for weeks only to have them not talk to him. “How are you doing?” He asked. “How are you both doing?” Spencer corrected himself. “It seems that every time I see you in the hallway, you're getting thinner. You're supposed to be gaining weight, or at least maintaining it, not losing.”

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[STEPHANIE ABIGAIL BRESLER]

"Sure, write it down, and I'll sign it." Steph said with a small frown. She was probably giving the poor guy whip lash. Her emotions and plans changed faster than the weather. One minute, Steph wanted nothing to do with Spencer. The next, all she wanted to do was be with him. She liked to think she was a reasonable person. That seemed to go out the window when pregnant.

"He's doing wonderfully. I had an appointment a few days ago, they said he's measuring on track for his age." Steph smiled softly. Tabitha, the healer, wasn't pleased Steph's weight gain. She wanted Steph to gain more, at least five more pounds before her next appointment. Steph wasn't eating enough. The calories went to the baby first, and Steph second. While the baby thrived, Steph was looking more sickly every single day.

"I'm doing the best I can. I haven't been sleeping much, and I feel so overwhelmed," she whispered softly. Steph felt horrible. The reason she and Spencer had the fight, was because she felt he had reservations. Now, Steph was second guessing herself. She was beginning to doubt her abilities to be a mother, and not screw this baby up. "I just feel so alone right now. Tristan had his daughter, and he's so busy. All of my friends, they don't like kids. I don't have any family to talk to."

"I can't even take care of myself properly. How am I supposed to take care of a baby? Here I am, twenty one, and I still can't sleep alone. It's just ridiculous," she said, blinking the tears away. Steph had never been a good sleeper, she always tossed and turned. The only times she got decent sleep, was when she shared the bed with someone. There was something about hearing their heart beat, and feeling their warmth. It was comforting to Steph. Knowing there was someone there, it made it easier for her. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to dump all this on you," Steph said with a small smile.

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[SPENCER LYNDON STARK]

And there was the mood swings that pregnant women were supposed to have. “I was kidding?” He said, shrugging. “But I'll send you a letter. Do wizards have lawyers...?” Spencer pondered out loud. It seemed a little late to be wondering that. Who did one go to when they wanted to make a will? Or divorce? Maybe he'd pose that question to his class and then educate them on the Muggle way of doing things.

But now, he was with Stephanie and she was telling him about how the baby was doing fine. “Good. That's good.” He returned her smile. That was probably the only good thing that she said. After that, Steph launched into a list of things that Spencer could only describe as horrible. “Don't worry. I'm cool with this.” Spence told her, after she was done. “Maybe you just need a break, to relax, you know?” He suggested. "Maybe a weekend out in the country or something. There's a rather lovely town nearby, and I don't mean Hogsmeade, that has quite the beautiful scenery.”

“I'd recommend a sleeping potion if you can't get to sleep? Maybe just a small dosage? Ask the school Healer about it? And well, you can always talk to me, even if you decide you like me one moment and hate me the other. Just give me fair warning.” Spencer looked up at her. “Besides, we're doing this together, right? Don't stress yourself out.”

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[STEPHANIE ABIGAIL BRESLER]

“I think there is a student, the American one. Her father is a lawyer, he works through a Muggle law firm,” Steph had dealt with a wizarding lawyer when her parents died, and when she sold the book shop. Wills, deeds and livings will were complicated. Trust funds, last wishes, things Stephanie had no knowledge of. When Steph had stormed out of Spencer’s flat, she went home and did research on shared custody. “I don’t think we need a letter. As long as we have a verbal and written, it should be fine. We can get it notarized. If we ever want a legal custody deal, we can deal with lawyers.” Steph dropped her books and papers on the step next to her, rubbed her temples. She could feel a headache growing, and all she wanted was to snuggle in bed with someone. Maybe I should get a dog, she thought to herself.

“I’ve been going into London most Saturdays, trying to get my flat ready. One of my roommates, Nicole, moved out, she was offered a new job in Egypt. Tristan is looking for his own place now, so he’ll be out soon. After Nicole moved out, Tristan moved into her room. He normally sleeps on the pullout couch, since he isn't home much.” The two bedroom flat would be perfect for Stephanie and the baby, one for her, one for the baby. It had two bathrooms, a dining area and large living room. It would be fine for the small family of two. “I don’t normally go down all weekend. I head down Saturday morning, and I’m back for dinner.”

“We’re doing this together, but we aren’t together.” Steph muttered softly. Shaking her head, she moved on. She was sick of fighting with Spencer, sick and tired of it. The baby kicked again, softer and gentler. It was if he could feel Steph’s stress levels rising, and tried to calm her down. “Have you thought about names at all?”

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[SPENCER LYNDON STARK]

“Charlotte Parker?” Spencer asked. She might or might not have mentioned her father was a lawyer. Spence could say truthfully that he had no idea. She might be one of his brightest students, but that didn't mean he knew everything about her. “Okay...” Spence said, not sure how the hell he was supposed to reply to that. With Steph saying that, it meant that she had actually looked into this matter. That she was going to do this whole shared custody thing. He was glad she wanted to do this, but at the same time, he didn't know if it was what he wanted.

A group of students walked by, looking at them both. He was sure they were a pretty strange sight. Two Professors sitting on the steps of the Astronomy Tower talking about going to London and getting flats ready. “Ah, Tristan. Doesn't he like stay in Egypt for like nine out of twelve months?” Spence said, thinking back to the first time he met the other man. “If you need help, just let me know.” Spencer said.

He knew Steph didn't like the fact that they weren't together. But Spencer would very much like to point out that she was the one who said she didn't require them to be in a relationship. She had said that, right? Because that was what he was basing this whole thing on. He wasn't sure about his own feelings for the woman who drove him nuts constantly. Like right now when she was muttering about them not being together but yet were doing it together. And when she asked about names, Spencer nearly let out a sigh. “Well,” He started talking, before a student rushed up to him and started sprouting words. “Woah, woah. Slow down.” The female student started talking about how a Hufflepuff student got injured in a duel and a whole bunch of other things that Spencer didn't catch. “Sorry, filling in for the Head of the House while they're away. I'll talk to you soon, alright?” He said to Stephanie, apologetically.


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